1. The Revamp

I titled this tumblr “Ramblings of an Active Mind” way before I understood that those words are actually significant to me and who I am. Way before I knew that I wanted to truly share my mind with whomever is reading. I am going to try to give you insight into my thoughts (and trust me, there’s a lot of them) so you can get to know me and if you decide you kind of like me, feel free to comment. Even as a weird and nonconformist child I envisioned that by 25, I would be doing what I loved with my one kid on my side. I never saw myself married, more in something committed, but that was a circumstance of my surroundings. Well, 25 came and left and I did not have shit, lol. I had a job and I was childless. It has been years, since then and I am still trying to figure out just what the hell I am passionate about and the kid can wait. (Notice that I do not tell you how many years exactly) I know what I am good at, but can that really sustain me? So many people say you have to risk it all sometimes but I am not a risk taker to that extent and I am fine with that. Not everyone can be nor does everyone need to be. For some people, that is a set up! Risk cannot be the only option.

I am very good at organizing things but those events are normally personal investments. So while I am sure, I will be awesome at event planning or something of the sort, I am not sure the passion is 100% there. Now, here is where I make my disclaimer, what comes after this is NOT me tooting my own horn but just what I have been told. I am an excellent writer. Personally, I think my writing is okay (needs grammatical perfection) but it is something that I thoroughly enjoy. Few things feel better than getting my thoughts out on paper and connecting words to evoke emotion or paint a picture. I get even greater pleasure when someone connects personally. It is like winning the lottery! (Meanwhile, I have never won the lottery, lol) I do not want to ever lose the way I feel about writing so I have never wanted it to be my job, something I have to do. 

It may be, however, that I am imagining passion in the wrong way. A lot of people define it like it is gonna be so great an awakening that I will not be able to miss it. But, what if it is just a quiet whisper that comes when I am writing out my frustrations, or when I am helping a friend compose an email or when I am editing a manuscript or even when certain words haunt me until I am forced to blend them into the magic that is poetry. What if in those moments I should have listened more closely and realized that I am being called to share with the world the intricacies of my mind? How do I fix it now?

Well, this is a part if the solution. I am gonna commit to writing this blog. I am gonna make my professional and personal long term writing goals and take it one day at a time. I will invest in the process and that will yield great outcomes. Success is imminent! So tell me, have you discovered your life’s calling? Are you on the path to doing so? Let’s talk…

    The Revamp

    I titled this tumblr “Ramblings of an Active Mind” way before I understood that those words are actually significant to me and who I am. Way before I knew that I wanted to truly share my mind with whomever is reading. I am going to try to give you insight into my thoughts (and trust me, there’s a lot of them) so you can get to know me and if you decide you kind of like me, feel free to comment. Even as a weird and nonconformist child I envisioned that by 25, I would be doing what I loved with my one kid on my side. I never saw myself married, more in something committed, but that was a circumstance of my surroundings. Well, 25 came and left and I did not have shit, lol. I had a job and I was childless. It has been years, since then and I am still trying to figure out just what the hell I am passionate about and the kid can wait. (Notice that I do not tell you how many years exactly) I know what I am good at, but can that really sustain me? So many people say you have to risk it all sometimes but I am not a risk taker to that extent and I am fine with that. Not everyone can be nor does everyone need to be. For some people, that is a set up! Risk cannot be the only option.

    I am very good at organizing things but those events are normally personal investments. So while I am sure, I will be awesome at event planning or something of the sort, I am not sure the passion is 100% there. Now, here is where I make my disclaimer, what comes after this is NOT me tooting my own horn but just what I have been told. I am an excellent writer. Personally, I think my writing is okay (needs grammatical perfection) but it is something that I thoroughly enjoy. Few things feel better than getting my thoughts out on paper and connecting words to evoke emotion or paint a picture. I get even greater pleasure when someone connects personally. It is like winning the lottery! (Meanwhile, I have never won the lottery, lol) I do not want to ever lose the way I feel about writing so I have never wanted it to be my job, something I have to do.

    It may be, however, that I am imagining passion in the wrong way. A lot of people define it like it is gonna be so great an awakening that I will not be able to miss it. But, what if it is just a quiet whisper that comes when I am writing out my frustrations, or when I am helping a friend compose an email or when I am editing a manuscript or even when certain words haunt me until I am forced to blend them into the magic that is poetry. What if in those moments I should have listened more closely and realized that I am being called to share with the world the intricacies of my mind? How do I fix it now?

    Well, this is a part if the solution. I am gonna commit to writing this blog. I am gonna make my professional and personal long term writing goals and take it one day at a time. I will invest in the process and that will yield great outcomes. Success is imminent! So tell me, have you discovered your life’s calling? Are you on the path to doing so? Let’s talk…

  2. 🌒🌑 #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription

    🌒🌑 #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription

  3. The most honest piece of me, I always express it and never regret it even if I am left standing holding nothing at the end, because in reality I gained a lot  #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription

    The most honest piece of me, I always express it and never regret it even if I am left standing holding nothing at the end, because in reality I gained a lot #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription

  4. Simplicity… #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #hug #connection #spirits

    Simplicity… #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #hug #connection #spirits

  5. Untitled stream of thoughts… #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #moment #questions #pleasure

    Untitled stream of thoughts… #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #moment #questions #pleasure

  6. ~Host~ #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #emotions #relationships #meaning

    ~Host~ #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #emotions #relationships #meaning

  7. I’ve been holding these title-less things, not knowing if they were finished and shareable to the point of understanding…

    I’ve been holding these title-less things, not knowing if they were finished and shareable to the point of understanding…

  8. *Ready* #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription

    *Ready* #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription

  9. You called me fat but the truth was you couldn’t handle a WOMAN
    My curves were too much of an indicator that you would have to be a MAN to be with me
    You said I was ugly but the truth was you had never before encountered an individual
    Instead you ran around looking for carbon copies of societal pressures
    Stuck in your rut because you were too narrow-minded to see that I was standing here ready to elevate you…

    You complain to your friends about how nobody’s down
    How you can’t find a good woman to have your back and be around
    How women have lost their self respect and you expect higher standards
    Yet you’re that same one that expects every woman to be a bad bitch, right?
    …Plastic, if necessary, because you have it set up that you’re going to kill her self esteem, if not
    Paying no attention to the fact that at the same time you’re killing a piece of yourself
    Just like you tried to do to me…
    Oblivious to the contestation of your expectations, to your lack of depth and maturity
    Never once seeing that you were face to face with excellence because you were too much of a BOY to fully comprehend and appreciate what you said you were seeking…

    Grow up, my brother…

    See, what I want for you to understand is that you don’t have to put me down because I’m not your typical
    That uncomfortable feeling I create in you means you’re growing as a person
    Finally ascending to the heights that you talked and dreamed about
    That have been accessible the whole time you were fighting to understand exactly what you wanted
    Was inherently a part of you; handed down by the blood of our ancestors
    That takes you back to your rightful place
    And that is on the throne KING
    Signed, a QUEEN

  10. ~Off Center~ present, personal, lived… #SoulHeart #SoulHeartMemo

    ~Off Center~ present, personal, lived… #SoulHeart #SoulHeartMemo

  11. I never wanted to admit to myself fully how I was feeling, whether it be happy or sad, I never wanted to show too much of anything but after a long journey of self exploration…I give myself permission. I have a right to experience every emotion that I’m feeling because they are mine, not yours or what you think they should be but MINE. On the days I don’t give myself that time, I see and feel the difference. Give yourself permission… #SoulHeart #SoulHeartMemo

    I never wanted to admit to myself fully how I was feeling, whether it be happy or sad, I never wanted to show too much of anything but after a long journey of self exploration…I give myself permission. I have a right to experience every emotion that I’m feeling because they are mine, not yours or what you think they should be but MINE. On the days I don’t give myself that time, I see and feel the difference. Give yourself permission… #SoulHeart #SoulHeartMemo

  12. ~When…~ #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription

    ~When…~ #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription

  13. ~5 Senses~ #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #senses #heat #wanting #need #emotions

    ~5 Senses~ #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #senses #heat #wanting #need #emotions

  14. Subjective over objective…

    Subjective over objective…

  15. Taste of us… #LoveIn2Lines #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #love #support #team #future

    Taste of us… #LoveIn2Lines #SoulHeart #SoulHeartInscription #love #support #team #future

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